Mysteries of God

There have been many a question about our home and the events of July 21. Here is the real story...
Around 6:45 pm, DJ and I sat down to have supper. Before we eat, we read a passage out of our devotional, pray and then dig into our meal. We have been married for only a few short weeks and living with someone for the first time is quite stressfu. So, we prayed that night for God to bring us closer together, give us patience with one another and to help us keep loving each other every single day.
7:30 pm we were finished eating and DJ left with the pickup to go to down to get some gas for the skidloader. He returned around 7:45 pm, parked the truck in the garage grabbed the gas out, filled the skidloader and returned the gas can to the garage and proceeded to go to the chicken shed to do chores. I was folding laundry in the living room and about 8:20 pm I heard a crackling noise from the kitchen. I stopped what I was doing and said "DJ what are you doing?" I didn't hear a reply so I walked into the kitchen and saw smoke, so I then walked into the Entryway where smoke was flowing through the edges of the door to the garage. I immediately turned around and ran out the living room door. I yelled for DJ that our house was on fire and he ran out of the chicken shed, turned on the water hose and as soon as that was on he knew it was too late and went through the living room door to grab some of our things. He managed to recover the following: A few of my clothes, my phone, his pheasant mount, his deer antlers, a Terry Redlin plate with deer on it and my Otto's Landing Terry Redlin plate! He returned outside, threw me my phone and told me to get away from the house. By that time, our neighboor Kenton and another guy were outside the house helping DJ. One the firemen were out of time near our home, heard the call and came right over. DJ started yelling "Maria where are you? Where are you?" The neighboors held DJ back. I ran up to the house and said "I'm here, I'm here! I got away from the house and was by the road!" Relief rushed over both of us. The rest is a blur of lights, sirens, hugs, support and ever flowing tears. We got to go in the house about 11:30 pm to retrieve some items we thought we could salvage. We found everything in the kitchen to be burned or melted except one thing...our devotional that we were reading that night was found on the floor just wet! Oh how the Lord is writing his answers on the wall for us!
I find myself to still be angry with God at times and want to know the answers of why us. We had our first start and now we have a second. I find myself turning to music that tells me its okay to be sad and that if I do fall that the Lord will still be there for me and DJ.

Here are some lyrics to songs that mean alot to us right now that are by BARLOWGIRL...

LET GO:
"Let Go"Yeah I trust in You I remember times You led me This time it's bigger now And I'm afraid You'll let me down But how can I be certain? Will You prove Yourself again?

[Chorus:]'Cause I'm about to let go And live what I believe I can't do a thing now But trust that You'll catch me When I let go When I let go

What is this doubt in me Convincing me to fear the unknown When all along You've shown Your plans are better than my own And I know I won't make it If I do this all alone


PSALM 73 (My God's Enough)"(feat. Todd Agnew):

I've had enough of living life for only me And reaching just for the things that keep destroying me So sick of envying the lives of so many I see Somehow believing that they have what I need

[Chorus:]My God's enough for me This world has nothing I need In this whole life I've seen My God's enough, enough for me I can't explain why I suffer though I live for You Those who deny You they have it better than I do Cover my eyes now so that my heart can finally see That in the end only You mean anything

Who have I in heaven but You Nothing I desire but You My heart may fail but not You You are mine forever


We ask that you continue to keep us in your prayers as we find everyday to have a new and different struggle. Pray for us that the sad tears my stop and the happy tears may begin. We love you all and appreciate all you have done for us! DJ and Maria Van't Hul